Sunday, December 27, 2009
Eyes, emotions, thoughts, hate, love.
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Saturday, December 19, 2009
'You asked for a revival. Here it is.'
We know how angry Satan is.
We know how much we can give in.
But the guy with the horns is shouting.
And I'm gonna shout back.Youth camp just ended today. Mmm. Tough. It's been stressful for me. Yeah. I cried. Good thing only one person saw it(:
But this youth camp has shown me, that even the more respected leaders can fall in an instant. It has shown me how fragile us humans can be. It has shown me that
feelings do cloud judgement. Don't surrender to your flesh, feelings, faces and facts. Toughie.
Again I see how imperfect we are. Again I've witnessed how important words are. Again I see people giving in and giving up. But again I see God's mercy and grace. Something we don't ever deserve.
Thing is, the Master, has given us mercy and grace. It's just so hard to learn to do so.
I wanna die to myself everyday like how Paul did.
I wanna put my pride away.
I wanna put my desires away and place God's desires for my life first.
I wanna be all that I can for Him.
But I'm just so stressed now I can't think of anything. Prayer. That would help.
I'm sick of negative emotions. I'm sick of miscommunication issues. I'm sick of anger.
I want a revival.
I want restoration.
I want peace in my heart.
Touche. Prayer works.
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Monday, September 21, 2009
Listening to Angels and Airwaves. Haven't heard their music for about 3 years already. Nice music (:
I realize, not recently, that people really like to put fronts. Sad. And, it ain't an assumption. Ask me, I'll prove(:
I'm hungry now. And woah, listening to AvA's good. Feels like my secondary 1 year. Ah, good feeling, good music.
Cobus is a christian. Wow. Tony Royster isn't. Sadly.
OH I GOT A NEW PHONE! It's a SAMSUNG S8003. Beautiful phone(: And dad got it for me, how nice. Haha. Thanks dad, if you do visit my blog.
Legion, My Sister's Keeper, Paper Heart, I Love You Beth Cooper. Woah. So many upcoming movies. Can't wait. Haha.
Valkyrie Missile - Angels and AirwavesOh, their making a movie that's coming out on the same day as their third album, 'Love', and it shares the album title. Interesting. Started as a documentary, then turned into a movie. Haha. I'm gonna watch it.
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Sunday, September 20, 2009
AHH. Long time since I've posted, and yeah, I'm still tired and bored.
So life hasn't been very worrysome for quite a long time, till quite recently. Yep. Sad. But I'll get over crap. Hah.
I wanted to blog about something, just can't really recall what I wanted to.
I'm starting to have an interest for politics and philosophy, which is bad IN MY OPINION. Because I ain't Andrew and Thaddeus who can keep agnostic views on them. I'll just dive straight in and never come out. Like psychology, well, the surface of it (: Still, it's lots of crap to know.
Studies and school, real slack. Yeah. Really really slack. It's so slack I can't really find any other words to describe school life FOR NOW. Ah. My eyes are tired.
An update on my life: I LOVE FRISBEE! Yeah. Somehow, it's the most attention grabbing sport to me and I just can't seem to shake the interest off of my poor cranium.
OH. Ben and I are supposed to lead half of the secondary 1 cell, tough, and I think familiarity will breed MUCH contempt. So, if you see this, give me some tips and pray for me huh. (:
Man, I really forgot what I wanted to post about. Damn. Memory's failing. I'm ageing, JUST KIDDING.
Well, I'll go put my nutshell on a pile of feathers now. Goodnight people!
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Sunday, August 23, 2009
What the hell is your problem? If she wants to talk on the phone it's her business, not yours. So just mind your freaking own business.
Who the HELL do you think you are
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Tuesday, August 18, 2009
Ah. I need a break.
Life's been a bore. Gosh there's nothing to do. Except for study, which I suck sooo bad at. Ah. I miss my friends):
So, guess what. I just started mousehunting. Ah. I disgust myself, but actually, it's not as bad as I thought.
Hmm. Alright. I got to go. I'm banned from the computer remember. Goodnight, and pray for my prelims if you see this, thank you! (:
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Tuesday, July 14, 2009
Alright. It has been ages since I've last posted, because I've banned myself from the computer in order to start studying for my exams, but it ain't helping so, I decided to use the computer just to blog today.
Life. Hmm. Has been pretty tough. I always wonder why people have to take things so seriously and assume that everything is against them. Locking themselves in their own world just because of a heartbreak. Cutting themselves because no one loves them. There's sooo much self-remorse. Man.
Love. What everyone thinks they know best. I for one believe that it is subjective, and not objective. Firstly, there is no fixed definition of what it means to love someone. Some of you might say 'No! There is a definition!', well my friends, that is YOUR definition. Secondly, what love is to you is not to someone else. We're all different, we aren't wired to think the same way.
Pride. Let's face it. Everyone has it, and everyone thinks they don't have it. I admit, I do. And it's such a shitty thing to have. Like what a friend told me,' It is only a liability to me'. I agree, to a full extent. So, I shall say right here, on this blog, that if I've ever pissed you off or anything, I'm sorry and please forgive me. But man. It is the most stinking 'gift' one could/can have. WHAT GOOD DOES IT BRING YOU. Man.
And again, please, NO ONE KNOWS EVERYTHING. If you think you know something better than another person, please, shut up and keep it to yourself. Give people a chance to learn huh. And I'm not talking about math or science questions, I'm talking about life. No one knows how to be a real success in life (of course, that is MY opinion. MINE.), and no one knows how to be the best in life.
I've realized that keeping your thoughts to yourself really does help. Doesn't show other people how stupid you are, doesn't show other people how hateful you are, doesn't show people anything about who you are. And I like that. To be unpredictable and not judged for your actions.
Everything has a reason. My reason for doing so, is because people judge, people gossip, people hate, lie, backstab, murder and betray. I bet most of you guys know that it IS very hard to find people you can trust in. I for one believe, that I, know that very well. Observing, introspecting, listening. That's what I've been doing. And yeah, anyone, can be a bitch. Any relationship, can turn sour. Any heart, can be broken. And anyone, can be a backstabber.
Best thing anyone can do, is just to be a friend first and hope for nothing in return. Then, you'll know who's the bitch and who's not.
Man. Stinking world.
And I don't even know who I am (:
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